I had a dream two nights ago. I was boarding a ship to leave the country. As we set sail, another ship took off at the same time and collided into an invisible wall. But I wasn't really on either of the ships, I was watching both ships as one kept going and the other had utter chaos.
I long to leave this place I know so well. I want to share the love of Christ with the helpless. I know that there is a pathway being gently carved as God shows his direction. I wish that I could run into a room of children that need love and swoop down and pick them up. A girl I met this summer told me that my arms would ache to hold a baby. I honestly wasn't sure if I believed her but I do now.
I struggle in talking about my experience with people as I wonder if they really are listening. Sometimes I find that in the conversations, people are more pulled to the cultural differences.
Last week, I had my wisdom teeth cut out. The nurse hooking me up to the machine asked me how I spent the summer. When I told here, she looked at me and said "Oh, I wish I could do something like that.." I said " you should and you can!" she quickly responded " I have two children, I just don't have time" and before I knew it I was being read the policies and given medicine to go to sleep. I keep thinking how I want to just go back and tell her that there is no specific time, to take her kids when they are a little older, because I saw other parents and their children come into the orphanage. Not only did the kid see and experience a change but the parent learned and grew from it as well. I am praying for this nurse..
Hopefully, I'll get to go back to this place that I have come to love in such a short time. God has already made so many changes in the plans I had for this Fall. It has been stressful coming back into this world where I am a college graduate and now needing a job, but I keep hearing God say "Be flexible". So with every intent of obeying, I am going with the flow. I guess we shall see..... :)
xoxo,
micah
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